"'Cuz I got a couple dents in my fender
Got a couple rips in my jeans
Try to fit the pieces together
But perfection is my enemy
And on my own, I'm so clumsy
But on Your shoulders I can see
I'm free to be me."
-Francesca Battistelli "Free To Be Me"
This song pretty well describes me... After 34 years, I'm realizing that it's okay to be who I am and that I really don't have to explain myself to anyone....besides God.
Well, I'm doing it - I'm starting a blog! The main reason I'm doing it is because I have people ask me constantly, "How's it going?", "What are you doing?", "What's going on in your life?" I find myself not knowing exactly what to say, since I so often get preoccupied with the stress that happens on a day-to-day basis; I really feel like saying (respectively), "I'm going crazy - want to come?", "I'm working like a dog, but I should be sleeping like a log", "My life is a whirlwind of caos and confusion, how about you?" It was around Thanksgiving when I realized that maybe my problem was in my outlook on everything....I came to the conclusion that, I really can't change anything except for my own attitude. Needless to say, I changed my attitude, decided to take a different approach to the stresses in my life and - Voila! - I have been MUCH happier ever since!
I have a 13-year old son who is entirely too intelligent for his own good, yet has no common sense; I have a 9-year old step-daughter who is being raised in a manner that is different from how I would raise her if she lived with me; I have a 3 1/2 year old daughter who is going on 16 and has as much attitude as my 13-year old....drama majors, ALL OF THEM! Oh, let us not forget the husband who works extremely hard in he oil field, which keeps him gone for 3 weeks out of the month (he comes home for 1 week a month, but there will be more on that later); not to mention the job that works me entirely too hard... There are so many things in my life that I could complain about and yet, every day I wake up warm, I'm able to feed my children who are healthy and well-dressed, I'm in good health and have a great job that I love, I have family and friends that support me and love me and care about me, and a husband who loves me and does his best to provide for his family.........
In short, as I sit here, on my birthday, and contemplate my position, all I can say is..."I am Blessed".
